When I was young I never learned how to accept a compliment without being embarrassed. I would smile, smirk, or flush. It made me feel like I was doing something wrong, drawing unneeded attention to myself, or the wrong type of attention to myself. I wish that someone told me to accept graciously and thank them. Or that it was not some bad but a confirmation that I was doing something right and I should be proud. Now I have learned to say, “Thank you.”
All these years later, I would love a positive comment…for something! But unfortunately my life is at a stand still. I have no job, no money and I live (rent free) with my family. I have no where else to turn. I am thankful for them. No one seems to understand how hard this is for me. I have always been the single Mom who could stretch 5 cents to make a dollar. Now I don’t even have 5 cents. I keep interviewing and trying my hardest to stay positive. I did have a boyfriend but I broke it off with him. He has so many of his own demons along with his negativity and distrust of me (due to his past with cheating women). I cannot accept his accusations and distrust of me for no reason. My birthday is Friday and my age seems to make it harder to find employment. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me! So today I smile alone…and thank God I am still alive!